!!!It is my favourite holiday and I would actually love to really celebrate it, but I can't motivate anybody to join in the fun. So tonight I will be going to a party alone and don't even know what I should dress up as. It was already awkward to go to a concert alone this week, but I had no choice and I guess next to no friends that share my interests
. I would prefer to do something more spiritual than dancing, but this area offers only little pagan traditions concerning this day
.And besides: I'm still at work although I should actually be home already
! But my boss gave me extra tasks and I did not even take my lunch break because of that. So I thought I would at least let them pay me for writing this journal on dA (I get paid by the minute) 
!What also pisses me off is that I am feeling sick again. I had a few nice days this week, after being sick (tonsilitis, sore throat, caughing like crazy) for 2 months, but now it seems back again and I kind of have enough! I constantly feel week, tired and unmotivated to do anything.
I don't want to clean up, cook, go shopping or organise the visit of my dad around Christmas. I would prefer if I could just do nothing for a change
. I can't even continue drawing during my lunch break since I have new colleagues
. So enough of complaining and off I go. I think I know what I will dress up as, but I don't know if I have clothing for that
Edit: my best friend DID change her mind and accompanied me to the party
, however I suddenly had a very bad sore throat while I was there and now I have a cold again .
